Why? Why? Why?

Good morning and TGIF kids! 

Sometimes I think about this crazy, insane, stupid and weird blog of mine. I mean, what is exactly that am I doing with it? Where am I going with it? What is the whole purpose of it? I tell you, sometimes I ask myself, what the fuck is the point of it all? 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 Y’all! 

Happy Monday Kids!.

Good morning and happy Monday kids! Even though I don’t like Mondays as much as I like Saturdays, I am grateful that I am alive and that I have a job that pays the bills. But I am even more grateful, because I didn’t drink this past weekend, and because of that, I feel great this morning. I got to enjoy the weekend to fullest, with my wife, kids, dog and friends. What more can a crazy person like me ask for?

With that said, I am Audi 5000 kids! 

The Sober Farmer

Good morning and happy Sunday kids! I am happy to report, that yesterday was the 35th anniversary of the day that my wife and I officially started dating and I had a great sober time with my wife, our kids and a friend of our daughter who took us out for dinner to celebrate at a wonderful restaurant in New Jersey. 

This might sound crazy coming from someone who has lived his entire life in the city. But from a youthful age, I have always enjoyed nature and the outdoors, but was never given the chance to do so, the way that I wanted. But today that is going to change, because my sober weekend plan includes me, doing things that I have always wanted to do and visiting places that I have always wanted to visit. So, to keep my mind busy and stay sober on the weekends, this morning my wife and I plan to take our very first trip to The Queens County farm museum. Yes, it is a real working farm that was started back in 1697. I do not know how the trip it is going to go, but one thing for sure is, that it will keep me from drinking. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 kids! 

Same Shit, 4th Day

Good morning boys, girls, and others and Yes! Yes! Yes! and… YES!… to most of your dissatisfaction, I am still alive and kicking, LOL, enough with my stupid jokes. But before you take out the world’s smallest violin and I get started with all my bullshit, just like one of the world’s greatest minds once said… Oops I fucked it up again! 

As I write this post, I have a big smile on my face, because even though last weekend I did go on another bender for a couple of days and as usual, it did not end well with my wife and our two adult kids. To make a long and boring ass story short, last Thursday I went to my first AA meeting in months and trust me when I say, that this time was very emotional for me, this time I felt something inside that really moved me and got me thinking about my fuck ups. I was able to connect with all the people who shared.

I guess that what I am trying to say is, that even though I drink on the weekends and I can go without it for months at a time, I am finally accepting that I am an alcoholic and that I can’t and should not drink alcohol for shit. There, I finally said it!

With that said, I am Audi 5000! 

IT IS STILL THE SAME SHIT!

Good morning and happy Monday kids! Remember to enjoy your day to the fullest because tomorrow is not promised or guaranteed.  

On another note, lately I’ve been thinking about people who stop using their drug of choice, only to replace it with another one. The fucked up shit is, that their stupid analogy is, that just because it’s not their drug of choice, it’s OK to use it. 

Correct me if I’m wrong here, but isn’t it true that a drug, is a drug, is a drug? I mean, what the fuck are these people thinking? Do they even have a fucking brain, or just empty space to rent? Aside from their selves, who the fuck do they think they are fooling? I know it’s none of my business, but it does become my business, when some dumbass tries to run that shit through me.

In other words, since my drug of choice is alcohol and I haven’t had a beer in 46 days, should I use weed, crack, coke, pills or heroine instead, since they are not my drugs of choice???

With that said, I am Audi 5000! 

One Alcohol Free Month

Good morning and Happy Sunday kids! Today marks my first month since I had my last beer, and I feel fucking great. It’s awesome to wake up feeling so good. 

Today my wife and I were invited to her cousin’s home in New Jersey for a get together. I know for a fact, that there will be a lot of drinking going on, but I can’t let that shit make me lose sight of my plan. The most important thing is, that I’m doing this for ME and only Me. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000! 

My Happy Sober Dance

Good morning and happy Thursday boys, girls and others! I am happy to announce that today is my 29th day, since I last had a beer, and to be honest, it feels fucking great, to be able to wake up with no fucked up hangover, no anxiety, no sweating, no shaking, no depression, but especially… NO REGRETS! I am looking forward to my one month anniversary.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!