I’m No Spring Chicken

Good morning and happy hump day kids! I’m still feeling the pain, from all the fun that I had on Monday, but the truth is, that it was all worth it. As a matter of fact, I have come to accept that I am 51 years old and turning 52 in a 6 days, and also that I’m not the same active person that I was up to my mid twenties, so when I do some strenuous activities, I will always pay the price.

As to my drinking? Even though I have an app that keeps track of my days without drinking, I really haven’t been looking at it much, because my problem with drinking is only on the weekends and only when I get really bored, other than that I DON’T HAVE TO DRINK. But just to put it out there, today is my 15th day without drinking and I feel fucking great… WOO-HOO!

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Having Fun To Stay Sober

Good morning and happy Tuesday kids!

For the first time in my life, yesterday I traveled with a newfound friend, who shares similar interests with me, to a go-kart racing track and we had a blast. After that, we checked out a camp site, to make family plans for next summer.

It is crazy, because my wife, kids, family, and longtime friends, do not enjoy most of the things that I do, so I never thought that I would ever meet someone like him. To be honest, this is what I have always needed, to get out of the apartment on the weekends and stay away from drinking.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 Y’all!

Why? Why? Why?

Good morning and TGIF kids! 

Sometimes I think about this crazy, insane, stupid and weird blog of mine. I mean, what is exactly that am I doing with it? Where am I going with it? What is the whole purpose of it? I tell you, sometimes I ask myself, what the fuck is the point of it all? 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 Y’all! 

Fighting Demons In My Sleep

Good afternoon and happy Thursday Kids! Today is my turn to work from the office, and even though they have me going crazy going up and down the elevator to get mail and documents, I really missed this, since I’ve been working from home since March of 2020.

On a mental state of mind note, as soon as I woke up this morning, I knew that there was something weird going on inside my crazy mind. The thing is, that Iately  I have been on a mental roller-coaster. It’s just crazy and I just can’t quite put my finger on it or understand what the fuck is going on.

Also, for the last couple of weeks, I keep having these crazy nightmares, were either I’m fighting a person or dark demon. I don’t much about nightmares, but I’m thinking that my subconscious is trying to tell me something. The thing is, that it’s been hard to find a new shrink. I also feel sorry for my wife, because due to my nightmares, she has to wake me up, because I’m either crying or fighting in my sleep, and she hasn’t been getting a good night sleep.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y ’all!

I Do It For Me

Good morning and happy Tuesday boys, girls and others, today I am happy and grateful, because I get to enjoy another day with family, friends and love ones.

When I started blogging more than ten years ago, I didn’t do it for fame, money or to get a book deal, because I am not a writer, nor do I want to be. I did it, because I wanted to meet others who like me, were suffering from OCD. Today, aside from my OCD and bipolar II, I am also dealing with my weekend binge drinking problem. 

My point? That I am just using this crazy, insane, stupid and weird blog of mine, to get the crazy shits out of my head and on to something, in order to stay as sane as I possibly can. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all! 

Happy Monday Kids!.

Good morning and happy Monday kids! Even though I don’t like Mondays as much as I like Saturdays, I am grateful that I am alive and that I have a job that pays the bills. But I am even more grateful, because I didn’t drink this past weekend, and because of that, I feel great this morning. I got to enjoy the weekend to fullest, with my wife, kids, dog and friends. What more can a crazy person like me ask for?

With that said, I am Audi 5000 kids! 

The Sober Farmer

Good morning and happy Sunday kids! I am happy to report, that yesterday was the 35th anniversary of the day that my wife and I officially started dating and I had a great sober time with my wife, our kids and a friend of our daughter who took us out for dinner to celebrate at a wonderful restaurant in New Jersey. 

This might sound crazy coming from someone who has lived his entire life in the city. But from a youthful age, I have always enjoyed nature and the outdoors, but was never given the chance to do so, the way that I wanted. But today that is going to change, because my sober weekend plan includes me, doing things that I have always wanted to do and visiting places that I have always wanted to visit. So, to keep my mind busy and stay sober on the weekends, this morning my wife and I plan to take our very first trip to The Queens County farm museum. Yes, it is a real working farm that was started back in 1697. I do not know how the trip it is going to go, but one thing for sure is, that it will keep me from drinking. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 kids!